Still here

I hit a low a few days ago and almost gave up my efforts to try and stay in Boston. I hit such a low that I was prepared to, in the middle of the night, leave for home and not return. In that hour, God called me to go walk with Him and pray to Him. During that walk God spoke to me through Mark Schultz's song "He Will Carry Me" (Lyrics in the last post). I knew that God was calling me to endure the storm because it would be by His strength, His promise that I would come through it.

I know that I'm still within that storm. Its not like miraculously my life has gotten easier. It has a little, God has blessed me with a temporary position which will at least help put some change in my pocket. But I'm still unsure of where next month (and this month's) rent will come from. I'm unsure of how I'll survive. Last night I almost fell back into my pattern of sinful worry and I realized that I had just received reassurance and I was about to fall again.

Although I don't know how, I know he will carry me.